佚名/Anonymous
Most children can't understand the meaning of Death.Their thoughts are not developed enough to process and accept its changes and finality.Existence continues but they long for the life they once knew by hoping that soon their parent will come back to them.Repeatedly their dreams a re shattered,when again and again that parent isn't there to kiss them goodnight.
As their mind works to understand the reason for them leaving,chang es continue to take places causing even more confusion.Suddenly they ar e exposed to new faces,new places and even the same is now somehow diff erent.Soon they start to wonder how this parent,who seemed to love the m so much,could leave them.The child notices the changes in the people around them as they themselves try to deal with the hurt and loss they a re feeling.
By being good,they try their best to make things right again so the ir parent will come back home,but again they fail.The feeling of guilt mixed with the feeling of failure causes the child to feel ashamed of wh at they have done and they withdraw deep within themselves.They long to hide from the world in an effort to not feel,or again cause the pain th at is felt so strongly by everyone around them.They become timid and sh y in hopes of fading into the background so no one will find out how evi l they really are.
Nights are spent lying in the dampness of silent tears that continue to fall,always haunting their thoughts of loving or being loved.Soon t hey began to feel unworthy of receiving love,but mostly they feel that they are unable to give love.They vow that they will never be hurt agai n and spend their life trying to avoid the love that was once felt so mu ch.They guard their hearts,longing for a life of loneliness to save th em from hurting.Unknowingly they punish themselves by blocking out the signs that love does exist in their lives.If by chances love is ever fe lt,caution kicks in and causes them to subconsciously drive a wedge bet ween them and the receptor of their love.
Maybe someday the child inside will find a person who is strong enou gh to break down the walls that have been built to protect them from the hurt.Someone,who's enduring enough to pursue the love despite the torm ent and the torture that is thrust upon them from the hurting child insi de.Someone to finally release the love that's been bottled up for so lo ng,then after setting it free,basting in it's flow as it surrounds the m.
The child waits inside,hiding the tears from the world and hoping e ach day that they will soon be set free,longing to release from their h earts years of guilt.Each night they pray for that special someone who will be strong enough,loving enough and patient enough to accept them f or who they are and teach them that they are worthy of being loved.Wait ing,they live their life in the darkness of the past,praying for the l ight of love.
大多數孩子不懂得死亡的含義。對於生命的變化和終結，他們的思維還沒有發展到足以理解和接受的程度。生活仍在繼續，但他們希望父母盡快回到自己身邊，回到以前熟悉的生活中去。可是，一次又一次地，父母不再親吻他們，不再向他們道晚安，他們的夢想一再破滅。
當他們開始理解父母離開的經因時，不斷變化的環境又帶來了更多的困惑。他們會猛然發現自己置身於陌生的人群，陌生的地方；即使是相同的環境，現在看起來也不一樣了。不久，他們開始困惑，父母那麽愛他們，為什麽要離開。當他們試著排解感受到的傷害和失落時，卻發覺周圍的人發生了變化。
為了讓父母重新回到他們身邊，他們盡最大努力把事情做好，盡量做個好孩子，但是，希望又一次破滅。他們深感內疚，同時也摻雜著強烈的挫敗感。於是，他們為自己的行為感到羞愧，並極力地掩飾自己。他們希望躲藏起來，甚至與世隔絕，這樣就感覺不到周圍的人帶給他們的巨大痛苦了；他們變得膽小羞怯，隻希望躲在某個不起眼的角落，不讓別人發現他們的罪惡。
無數個不眠之夜，他們默默地流淚，腦海中總縈繞著一個問題——什麽是愛與被愛。很快，他們覺得，接受愛是不值得的，但大多數時候，他們又覺得自己沒有能力付出愛。他們發誓不讓自己再次受到傷害，始終努力避免曾經感受過的深深的愛。他們緊閉心扉，希求孤獨的生活，以逃避傷害。他們不知道，這樣拒絕生命中一切愛的跡象，其實是對自己的懲罰。如果他們偶然感受到了愛，便會謹慎地避開，下意識地在自己與付出愛的人之間設置了障礙。
也許，有一天，會有一個人走進孩子的內心世界，打破他們為避免傷害而構築的“圍城”；會有一個人，不論受到來自受傷孩子多大的折磨和痛苦，仍能一如既往地對其予以關愛；終有一天，他會讓孩子封存已久的愛釋放出來，情感之閘一旦打開，愛便會噴湧而出。
孩子會在心中默默等待，暗自垂淚，希望某天能夠得到解脫，把內疚感釋放出來。每個夜晚，他們會祈禱那個特殊的人出現——他足夠強大，有足夠的愛心和耐心來接受真實的他們，並告訴他們，自己值得被愛。等待，他們活在過去的黑暗中，祈求愛的光芒。