英文愛藏:那一年,我們各奔東西

第9章 青春不散場 (8)

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He stopped talking, I didn’t know what was going on in reality, but he knew it, because within the last couple of months he was having trouble breathing. That didn’t bother him much until that moment when he visited a doctor. I looked at his eyes, and I saw his blue coloured eyes blurring into shadows of a dream. I understood what was going on, but I didn’t cry, because I knew if I did, that would really hurt his feelings. I looked at him again and said, “Everything will be just fine; you just have to take proper care of yourself.” Inside of me, the flame of sadness kept burning and I was barely keeping my tears from falling, but I knew I was strong enough to handle myself.

That moment was followed by a joke, which I don’t really remember. In order to make him laugh and make his emotions go away, I began telling some really good jokes. He started to laugh very hard, but he coughed too. That was the last time I saw him laughing that hard, that happy, that sad at the same time.

On the same night I got a call from him, asking me to go and see him, because he wasn’ t feeling very well. We were always there for one another, so I went there. He looked all white, and his blue eyes didn’t seem to be very happy. I was trying to fool myself and kept repeating in my mind that everything was going to be all right. I couldn’t make myself to believe that it was really going to happen.

It was 2: 30 a.m. when he finally told everyone to go and leave the two of us alone. He started talking. “I know what’s going to happen next, but you don’t worry... I’ll be all right, because God is going to take care of me. And don’t be sad. It’s not like we’re not going to see each other again?”

He asked me to hold his hand hard, and he also told me that our friendship will last forever no matter what happens. He gave me a letter and said,“Whenever you feel it’s time to read this, just open it.” I closed my eyes, and within seconds I felt his pulse stop pumping, and a dark cold ran inside of my hands. He just left everything. His blue eyes were already close, and I couldn’t do anything else to make them look back at me.